my beginning

The start of something new.
I've decided that I don't take enough pictures, and have never had a journal or diary or anything. So this is my attempt to make up for it. This is for my thoughts, dreams, and all the other shit between (yep I'm tough I swear in blogs).
To draw a comparison to this bio from a band called Ellington:


'In five, ten, fifteen years you're racing through all your old CD’s and you find an Ellington record so you decide to give it one last spin, for memories sake. All of a sudden every moment, good or bad comes flooding back like it was just yesterday.'


In a nutshell (not cashew/ walnut/ pistachio/ brazil/ pecan/ macadamia nuts as much to everyone's disbelief, I do in fact have a weakness - I'm allergic to most nuts), I'm pretty much doing this for myself (and anyone else who actually wants to read about my life) and I'm doing the blog version of that Ellington thing up there. But if in fifteen years I'm looking back at my life and reading a blog, readers please shoot me because at that point in life, I probably would have made a lot of wrong decisions and am probably sleeping in a gutter with a laptop as a blanket (laptops are the new blankets in fifteen years) so just make it easy and end it. This is more suited to perhaps in a couple months when I feel like reading old posts so I can reminisce about the 'good ol' days', when petrol was a mere $1.44 when I filled up today.

Enough of why this blog is up.
It's been a pretty tough week, full of disappointments. Got too many assignments to do and a big lack of motivation/time/effort.
Had a few tough obstacles with the band and shows. A lot of disappointments (both people and events) but its a learning curve and I'm pretty sure I'm becoming pretty good friends with disappointment. Probably end up great friends and I'll take it out to dinner, get it drunk and hopefully move on to the 'clothing optional' part of the evening and take advantage like a real man does (joking i swear).

Saw an old friend today. He looked so different. Been eating terribly, I've had 2 good meals in the last 4 or 5 days. The rest has been junk food. My body feels terrible and its yelling at me right now. Keep on getting cramps in my legs. Can't stop spinning Paper Rival's EP in my car. Alabama and Pacing the Cage are so addictive. Probably going to fall asleep at the wheel any day now.

It's hard to sleep - everytime Xander my kitten thinks its funny to bring his latest little toy he's scavenged from around the house into my room, and has an epic battle with it (think this but kitten vs bottle cap), jumping off bookshelves and desks and my bed.

Go see 'Definetely Maybe'. Ryan Reynolds would make the best dad. The little girl who I've heard is from 'Little Miss Sunshine' is soooooo cute.

This 'living' thing kind of gets hard. I've been falling and a few specials have been picking me up. They know who they are. Tonight was special.
But in the end, I feel like they can only do so much.

'Catch yourself, catch yourself.
When others aren't enough.
When lovers aren't enough.
Catch yourself, catch yourself.'

Goodnight.